Happy Sexy Birthday to ME!!! (Updated with photos)

Hubby and I went away for 3 days to celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary at a lovely bed and breakfast. The only thing I told him I wanted after his long list of demands for what kind of B&B he wanted was to get fucked on the wrap around deck that he had to have. I fell in love with the bathroom, and made myself good and horny every time I went in there to shower. There was a mirror across from the shower so that I could watch myself as I lathered up, and a huge mirror behind the door that I could see not only me but the window behind me (the thought that someone else could be watching...shiver. Anyhoo... Long story short, we did have a wonderful time on our trip but alas, he did not, could not, would not fuck me on the deck.

Don't get me wrong, we had unbelievable sex four times on this little getaway, which for him is a lot. He let me suck his dick and fuck me with the deck blinds wide open and I did get him to fuck me royally from behind in front of that bathroom window you see in the pic above, a huge step for him and my bff tells me to just be happy, but I can't let it go. Am I being a bitch? Probably.

Here's the scenario that ruined it for me not-so briefly:

We had one special night out where I got all dolled up and after he made a joke about it, I even went out without any panties on. Of course, he made no under the table play, which was the first thing to annoy me. I mean why temp me to go pantyless and then don't do anything about it, huh?

Then we get back to the B&B after a scrumptious dinner and drinks to be met with chilled champagne that we had on the wrap around deck, in the dark, me in the dress still with no drawers on, the stars and ocean as our scenario, no one around, and still no play? Could I have jumped him? SURE, but I want him to come out of his sexual shell, so I waited.

We go back inside, I put on the sexy bustier that he bought for me, put it on under the fluffy robe they gave us, because he really wanted to watch a movie, and since it was "our" anniversary getaway, I felt I "had" to let him do some things that he wanted. Well, his ass fell the fuck asleep!!! When I copped an attitude, turned off the tv, got under the covers and removed the robe, he wakes up to say: "sorry babe, but you know the food, the fresh salt air, the alcohol, I'm so tired...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz". I pretty much fumed until I fell asleep some 2 hours later.

Then I awoke at 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, so I decided I would get up to watch the sunrise alone (we had talked about this on our family trip that he always wants to sleep or nap during any sunrise or sunset and we've never seen one together on any of our trips, that I always see them alone). Well, he must have felt super guilty because he joined me on the balcony.

After trying to get me to tell him what was on my mind after an hour of making mindless conversation, I recounted all of the missed opportunities he had to give me the ONLY thing I asked for on this trip and that he couldn't (and I quote) "couldn't be that fucking clueless". Unfortunately for me, he admitted that he is! I had to say, "Moron, I'm still in the fucking robe with the sexy bustier under it that you bought for me, and for an hour you haven't even asked to see it or touch it...we're still on a deck on a roof, with no one awake or caring for miles...and you haven't done SHIT!!"

He started with his usual apologies about his shortcomings and how sexy I am, how much he loves me, blah, blah, blah...and then had the nerve to ask me: "What do you want me to say?" I lost it: "I DON'T WANT YOU TO SAY SHIT!! DON'T YOU FUCKING GET IT?! STOP FUCKING TALKING!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ALL THE SAME APOLOGIES! NO MORE FUCKING TALKING!!! OR YOU CAN GO BACK INSIDE!!"

I sulked while he pondered for what seemed like an eternity, and then he kissed me. I wanted to punch him in the face so bad because I felt like I was forcing him, you know? Then he spread my legs and fingered me so briefly that I barely got my heart racing before he said: "let's go inside". WTF!!!!! Like a little kid I said, "no no no" but he just pulled me along like the big baby I was being, brought me inside, and fucked me.

Sigh. I asked him: "you made me wait five years to get fingered on a deck in public, how many more will I have to wait for what I really want?"

His answer: {shrug}

SIGH!

OH, and I forgot the best best best. We had clearance with my mom to enjoy the full 3 days, he surprises me at dinner (before the non-deck sex) that he misses the kids and wants to leave immediately after checkout the next day, HUH?!?! (First I was extremely touched, but then I'm like: dude I'm with them all day everyday!"

I think I just need a vacation for myself, selfish, I know.